I am in a season of my life where I am not sure where I fit in. Sometimes I wonder if God is making life uncomfortable because He wants something different from me. I don’t know.
I have really struggled with where He wants me to be right now…where I can make a difference. I have shared previously that I heard Him loud and clear tell me what He didn’t want me to do in some areas. But I hadn’t heard anything about my job outside the home. We have gone through a pretty major reorganization and it hit me today that I don’t know where I fit in anymore here either. I have worked at the same place for 25 years and the last 13 in the same position and I’ve always felt like I made a difference. The change has been hard and today was probably the worst. I don’t feel like I am making a difference, just really going through the motions.
So what do you do when don’t feel like you are making a difference? Is it God showing me that it’s time to move on or is He trying to humble me to take the focus off of me? Is my unhappiness a result of self-focus? Am I really glorifying God in all I do?
I’ll keep praying and asking for His wisdom and guidance as I seek to give Him glory in whatever I do and I know He will continue to cover me in His grace.
“When the mask of self-righteousness has been torn from us and we stand stripped of all our accustomed defenses, we are candidates for God’s generous grace.” -Erwin W. Lutzer